I am so tired...

"Because God loves you."

A typical answer to the question: why did God created me. But why did He place me on that earth? I love God and I want to walk in His way, but the world stumbles me. I am trying hard, but it is beyond my ability...

Well, because on earth, you pronounce His glory, and - more importantly - you taste His love. When you taste missing Him, you will appreciate being with Him, and your joy is splendid.

But that is so tiring, I am tired of falling and repeating falling. I am tired of my weakness. Why didn't He create me infallible?! Why is it so hard to live with Him? Why am I not created perfect? Wouldn't I better glorify Him if I was an angel? Sigh! I want to serve God from all my heart, but I have to work and have to worry about my plans, and worry about my beloved, and my church, and my country, and and... why are we on earth? Let it end so that we are released and be with God!

We are on earth, just temporarily. We should not worry about earthly matters. We need to fly into heavenly matters.

Then what? I should quit my job? I should not plan for the future? Should we all grow a beard and do nothing but praying? Isn't praying what we are supposed to do in heaven? So why do anything else? Why do I have all other responsibilities while on earth that I fall short for?

"Beloved, I wish above all things that you may prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospers." (3John 2).

Did you notice that you have been focusing on what you are doing now and what you are supposed to be doing, and what you would love to do. Then, you see all distractions and stumbling blocks that delays you.

This is exactly my problem, that there are many distractions and barriers towards perfection on this earth. And I can not let that desire to be perfect go, because this is how I can reach God.

This is exactly your problem. That *you* want to be perfect, so that *you* reach God. And unfortunately, there are many barriers that you can foresee that strikes *your* path.

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Where is God in your picture? God's image is lost in that picture. God created you on His image, so you need to do everything like Him. But we can't, because we are weak. So what?

Do not quit your job, but work and labor for Him, in Him, with Him.

Do not stop planning for the future, but plan relying on Him, and stop worrying.

Do not stop being active, social, servant/minister, but do all with Him.

Bring Christ back to the picture, and you will not see *your* weak self, nor the tribulations.

Bring Christ back to your heart, and you will enjoy peace.

Do all what you want, and all what society and church may ask you to do, but do all in Christ.

Do all things, but please, don't lose your focus on Christ.